My Idealism has ended but the Ideas have not

 

There was something nice about being young: naïve and carefree, the world at that time is a blank canvass, an undefined and boundless potential. The mind is fresh enough to perceive ideas, that are shape not by experience but by unbridled imagination. My lack of experience was compensated by insatiable hunger for information. And so I remember reading everything readable I can lay my eyes on, including the Green Book of Qadafi, supposedly, a ‘Muslim’ version of the Red Book or the Das Capital of Carl Marx.

And yes, I wanted to change the world, well, specifically Mindanao. The Bangsamoro narrative was slowly introduced to my pscyhe during the Ramos-Misuari era and SPCPD and what not. Thus I saw my self, primarily as somebody from the Bangsamoro – hence I wrote under the pen name “albangsamori”. With Armed Revolution romanticized by Che Guevara and Che Guevara Wannabes,  and being influenced by that,  I was furious and indignant that Misuari had to make a peace deal with the government. This belief (that we need war to achieve change), which I now believe to be misdirected, was reinforced by misunderstanding the Islamic methodology of Al Amru bil Ma’roof wa nahtu ‘anil Munkar (Enjoining what is good and forbidding what is bad).

Once I was with a wise man, Mr. Ibn Hajr Turabin, a father of a friend. He told me for Muslims to get back their homeland, they have to buy Mindanao (or some of its portion).  It sounded like a joke to me then, but now, to me at least,  it makes more sense than fighting an unwinnable fight.

And so the years gone by, and to my disappointment, the world has still not change.  My idealism has waned. I no longer wanted to write using the pen of ‘albangsamori’.

Having said all these, I am aware that this shouldn’t stop me from communicating my ideas about my homeland.

Am I living a dual life?

The first thing I do when I arrived at work is to put my coffee thermo-mug on a shared desk (virtually by everyone including our Aides). Sitting atop this desk is a corporate computer that allows multiple user accounts. As soon as I settle on a synthetic coated cushioning seat of a steel chair, my right hand inavertently reach towards the waiting mouse automatically navigating it on a padless surface and consequently dragging the cursor towards logging into my account. With the username and password logged in, the familiar opening scene of Windows OS appears before me revealing the desktop and its innumerable shortcuts that have been sitting there unused for months.

I find opening my corporate email exciting because of the regular updates I receive from several online research websites like medscape and pubmed. Thus without much effort the exciting new world of medical and scientific updates are there ready to be explored with a single click of the unwary mouse.

Randomized-controlled trials or RCT's are all I'm looking for in a new research. I tend to ask all the basic assumptions of Physiotherapy practice most especially in treatment prescriptions. If I have only enough time in the world, I'd read about every single issue that's affecting my patients. Just recently I have a traumatic brain injury patient with heterotrophic ossification on his right knee just slightly above the medial epcondyle. I couldn't help myself but consult Shaikh Google for a medical fatwa on the subject. Just kidding actually, Google has a 'Scholar' tab where one is supposed to go if one wants to 'stand on the shoulders of the Giants ( I think it was Sir Isaac Newton who said this) and look for Systematic Reviews, Meta analysis, Cochrane Reviews and RCT's. But I don't have all the time in the world to do this to all my patients in all of their concerns.

Is it wrong to feel elation - well not really elation - but some kind of inexplicable happiness or satisfaction when I get to download free articles in PDF formats (considering that it took at least 3 years for the publishers of these papers to study and write them)? Thus stacks and stacks of unread papers are just piling up on my shelves waiting to be bound according to their year of publishing and topics.

Then I go home...and here is when the crossing over happens; when I enter my car, start its engine, I get reminded that I have to prepare for my Friday lecture at Fanar.

Teaching Islam to new Muslims may sound easy but if one wants to teach properly according to the standards set by the scholars from the days of old up until now, one has to choice but to read about the topics in more scholarly details. If reading about Salah in Fiqhus Sunnah doesn't sound hard enough, what about going deeper and read about it in Bidaayatul Mujtahid written by Ibn Rushd (Averroes). Although there is a standard manual used in the organization, I cannot but help to look for the Takhreej of the Hadeeth mentioned therein in order to ascertain for sure their authencity or not. Good thing alhamdulillah because of this cyber-digital-revolution, one can find thousands of classical books in Arabic packed in a three gigabyte file with a search function in it. This is not called Al Maktabah Ash Shamilah (The Complete Library) for nothing.

Evidence base science is not only in medical practice but also in Religion. Allah repeatedly said in the Qur'an "Haatoo burhanakum in kuntum saadiqeen". "Bring forth your proofs if you are truthful". Thus in Islam, every minute point of belief, every single action of worship, has to have an evidence from the Qur'an and Sunnah and its derivatives (Ijmaa, Qiyas, 'Urf etc).

I guess this insatiable search of mine of truth - whether it is emperical truth or truth by revelation that drives me to dig and delve deep if possible to the bedrock of things. I maybe exploring two separate directions in terms of inquiry, nevertheless I now realize that they are actually one. There is no conflict between science and religion because all the truths came from the same source. One of the names of God is Al Haqq - the Truth.

God told us to say this when we ask Him for something:

Rabbana atina fiddunya hasana wa fil akhirati hasana wa qina adhabannar. O Our Lord give us the best of this life and the next life and save us from the punishment of the fire.

Also in Soorah al Mulk (67) He said, "Alladhee khalaqal mawta wal hayata liyabluwakum ayyukum ahsanu amala'". He it is who has created death and life so that He will test you which of you is the best in Deeds."


Barakallah feekum